I began my day by participating in a 2 mile Turkey Day Fitness Walk. My original intentions were to run, but a week with a sick child and a couple days of me lacking motivation, put me a little over week behind in my training schedule. Plus, I walked with my stepmom who walks but doesn't run. Although she walks as fast as I run. She is trying to convince me to participate in the upcoming mini marathon, but I still doubt my abilities.
Today I also had the first Thanksgiving dinner at my house and it felt so good! I was so proud to see everyone packing on the pounds thanks to my hospitality!
I am thankful for so many things, mostly all the same as others; God, friends, family, my home, my good health, etc. I am however finding it increasingly difficult to be thankful for being the mom of a young infant. You see, my beautiful young infant who is close to 7 months, still does not sleep more than 3 hours at a time. This is really taking a major toll on me since I am the only person equipped to calm his screams in the wee hours of the night. I spend many a night in tears wondering what I can do differently (other than allowing him to scream hours on end like the pediatrician suggest). I am not against letting a child cry some, but there is a point where enough is enough and it becomes cruelty, and this child of mine is more than capable of reaching that point.
Please pray for/think about (whatever your beliefs bring you to do) me and this situation. I know that both poor Cole and myself desperately need a full nights rest on a regular basis. I welcome any reasonable humane suggestion to aid in this goal!
Hope everyone had a wonderful turkey day.
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Jenn, you are amazing. Cole had colic as well and reflux, he has been a challenge!
My friend did the Team in Training deal and just completed the marathon in San Fran. She is the one who inspired me. I do not have enough discipline, time, or desire for a marathon, but will gladly help on smaller scales.
Lady of the Manor,
You cry all you want to because you're tired and frustrated and challenged by your infant. And then you put on a spread that fills your belly with pride if you want to. And then you eat lots of that turkey and hope it works as a sedative so that said infant will sleep through the next year. And then forgive yourself for not training for a marathon. And then know that you are doing things that one of your very best friends doesn't have the courage or selflessness to try and that you are amazing and capable and an inspiration to everyone around you. You'll get through it, and if it takes kicking and screaming and crying to do it, go ahead. Sometimes that helps more than being thankful!
I LOVE YOU!
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